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Sunday, October 21, 2007

this is a shorter weekend for me

and the week

really felt damn long

especially while at the outfield grounds
from tuesday to thursday
crappy grounds
f***ked up weather

dig dig dig
cover up
redeploy
dig again

lost important document
lost watch
lost appetite
lost sleep
lost mood

i seem to be very absent minded these days
what exactly is the problem
i cant pinpoint

this sianess is destroying the very things that i look foward to
time spent outside camp
even as im typing this
feel so darn apathetic

u noe u get the i want to F88k the world attitude
the worst thing is
u dont have the one or two days where u can just do nothing and rot around
why?

cos u got to serve the organisation
and the organisation
demands that u bookin on time
even a few minutes late can land u in trouble
yet it releases u as it deems fit

it demands the best from u
it wants u to be at ur best
but it doesnt compensate for ur sacrifices sufficiently
its a hierachial system
where orders are absoulute and authority cannot be questioned

my good friend is about to enter the organisation
understandibly hes feeling rather apprehenive and sian...
watching the movie superbad just now
not a bad film
good for laughs
and an insight to us high school life
talked to my fren bout some stuff regarding the organisationa
and what to expect
wish him the best

psp
got juiced 2
not a bad game
quite a good game
bout the import scene
too bad no free roaming
not like need for speed series

i must say im very dissapointed with wangan midnight portable
controls are stiff
and its nothing like maximum tune 3
totally diff game physics
i'll stick to wmmt3
even if its costly

first post from my new home
outz
gonna sleep soon

12:26:00 AM

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